Older parents will always say to you “enjoy this time.” and I get it. Babies grow up so fast (I can attest from experience.) It is strange though, I am trying to enjoy this current “baby stage,” but at the same time I feel like I have tunnel vision and I can see my life “fast forwarded.” With my first I wanted him to do everything (milestones) on time or early to prove that he was OK (or better than OK.) With Jessaleigh, I sometimes feel like I am measuring her against when her brother did things. I know rationally that you cannot measure kids against each other (and really shouldn’t even), but it is hard from me to not say “when did Chanler do X???” I want to enjoy this baby stage, but at the same time I am looking forward to the next stage too. Sometimes I feel like I can almost look down the tunnel that is my life and see what is to be. Children grown, etc. and then I come racing back to now with an infant and toddler. It is almost surreal.