Around the block again

Well today is day 28 and I haven't gotten my period. I am usually a 24-27 day girl so this may be the beginning of something. I have already checked what my possible due date would be - end of January - not my ideal birthday, but I told God I would take what he gave me and stop trying to be in control of all of my life.

Sushi or a Church potluck?????

Today we had lunch a Miyake's and since nothing is official I had my usual which does have raw fish. Then this evening we went to a potluck and my mothers church. There were four kinds of fruit salad (mine even had a worm in it-yuck), 5 kinds of green bean casserole, 8 kinds of potatoes (all bland and kinda gross) and Ham - my favorite.

On the way home from dinner I was chatting with Scott about things I might do differently this pregnancy (i.e. being less strict about raw fish, caffeine etc and more proactive i.e. a real prenatal yoga class that costs money, a doula etc). Scott's comment about the sushi was that "you are probably more likely to get food poisoning from tonight's potluck then you are from lunch at Miyake's" - That man makes me laugh!

So I still haven't taken a pregnancy test (cause I am lazy), but I am starting to feel pregnant. This gets me to thinking - am I over thinking/analyzing this? Am I reading too much into every feeling? comparing it to my experience with Chanler's pregnancy. Am I really feeling pregnant or is it all just in my head? and if I am really "feeling pregnant" what does that mean about this baby?? is it a girl because is it different for my boy pregnancy; is it twins because I am feeling things earlier? or is it just a second pregnancy so everything is different. What is going on?????

Well I finally got around to testing. We have confirmation - we are pregnant! The funny thing is that the directions say to wait 2 minutes before reading the results (after you pee on the stick, which by the way, had to be thought up by a man). Well ours came up positive by the time I was finished wiping it off (about 20 seconds). Not sure what to make of that?

OK I remember being sensitive to smells (i.e. certain smells make me sick) when I was pregnant before, but this time every just smells funny, especially my hands (and yes I have washed them - repeatedly). It is not a horrible smell, or one that makes me sick, it is just different and strange.

So I am having more symptoms with this PG - OK maybe not more, but earlier at least. So far I am:
tired - often and easily
slightly nauseous - especially after eating
tender in my belly - i.e. my pants hurt when I sit down.
tender in my boob - sorry if TMI
generally not up for much of anything

AND today I bought maternity jeans. My jeans are just too tight in the waist - no I haven't gained weight or gotten a belly, but (just like last time) I am really sensitive around my waist. I had one pair of jeans from the last PG, but they are more for 3rd trimester - all my other maternity clothes are business casual, since I was working last time. I think I am going to have to buy more maternity clothes. I am not sure how I feel about that.

Off topic, but I have no where else to put it for now:
We found some great "you have a new baby on the way" type books for Chanler.

I was looking for a big brother or something like that, but all the books had the babies in cribs and with bottles. I finally found one by Dr. Sears and his wife which is GREAT! it has co-sleeping and nursing all through it.

and so far this one sucks (more than the first) early on.
I have been sick everyday. Not to the point of actually throwing up, but to the point I have to lie still for a few minutes. I can't bring myself to cook (or even leave the house without being cajoled)

I feel icky.

Here's how we are telling the world (well at least family for now). I love this shirt. I got the ideal from a friend through a mommy group and had to have my own made. It was soo worth it!!!!

I'm thiiis happy

Who me?

I'm so happy I could . . .

JUMP

I guess I haven't posted for a while and the reason is that I am EXHAUSED! The nauseousness is getting better (down to a dull roar, but at least I don't have to lay down when it hits), but I am sooo tired. I have fallen asleep while Chanler is playing (or at least I am listening to him play with my eyes closed), in the car, at nap time, etc.

I have an appointment with a new midwife at Kaiser at the end of this week. Hopefully everything will be easy and positive

My pants are falling down . . .
I know you start feeling and looking pregnant earlier with 2nd pregnancies, but this is getting ridiculous. I have serious plumbers crack!

To be comfortable while sitting my pants have to be 2 sizes to big - which means that they will fall off when I am walking around (and yes they have elastic at the waist). And I look silly in maternity pants just yet (and they fall down too).

I can't wait until my clothes start to fit again.

We had our first appointment at Kaiser Santa Theresa. It was actually pretty funny. My "new" primary "NP/CNM" was on vacation so I saw a different midwife. She was great. She had trouble turning on the ultrasound machine and figuring out how it worked.
So we got to see our little gummy bear and confirmed that there is a heartbeat and that there is only one in there.
The midwife then tried to do some measuring of the ultrasound picture, but managed to clear the screen before she was done. She asked if we cared about the measurements or if we just wanted to go with our dates! I said we were confident in our dates and didn't need to measure.
We then talked about KST L&D policies etc and the midwife said that my primary NP was NOT ACTUALLY a CMN!!!! and doesn't even have hospital privileges! WTF. It is not that I care (I have not yet actually met the woman), but I am annoyed because it said she was a CMN on the pick a Dr. page and that was the ONLY REASON that I picked her. Oh well, I am going to make appts with the actual midwives from now on anyway. I may get through this pregnancy without ever actually meeting my primary Dr. how silly is that???

that all the hospitals within one HMO would work the same - NO????

At KRC the first appointment involved filling out paper work (reams and reams of it), a complete exam and the ultrasounds. It was a LONG appt, but you got everything done in one shot.

At KST there is a "pre" appointment (which is what we had) where the do the ultrasound to confirm you are pregnant (apparently the pregnancy test isn't good enough). Then there is a "pregnancy orientation" appointment where you fill out forms - I think (oh and you aren't supposed to bring small children to this appt - HA) and then finally a third appt to have the full exam. WHY do I need to drive there 3 times??? what a waste.

I have the worst (painful) zits right now (and for the last month). It totally sucks. My SIL says that means we are having a girl - we'll see if she is right in January.

I am on week 11. I am feeling mostly good - I have more energy than I have had for the last few weeks (as long as I don't do too much) and I don't feel too nauseous (unless I don't eat every 2 hours).
The problem comes that with Chanler's pregnancy I started getting REALLY sick (i.e. not just nauseous, but actually vomiting) around week 12. With the first pregnancy I had a bit of morning sickness early on which went away, then bam I was throwing up for 4 weeks starting at week 12, just when everyone says you should be starting to feel better.

So now that I am feeling a bit more like myself - I am scared that this is a too short reprieve and that I will soon look back on the complaints of last few weeks as minor compared with how I will feel then. The short of it is - I just really don't want to puke!!! ever - and I am scared that I will!

Well it happened. Week 12 came (according to my counting, but not the official counting just yet - they are about 2 days apart) and I am horribly sick. Yesterday wasn't a great day. I felt sick most of the day - not badly sick, but just yucky. We went out to dinner last night with David, Steve and Ann, dinner was OK - I didn't eat much. Got home and went to bed a bit late (about midnight). I woke up at 3am and spent half an hour waiting for what I knew was coming. So I sat in the bathroom on the floor, thinking and killing the occasional ant. Got back to bed around 3:30, but couldn't get to sleep until about 4 (after I had sent Scott down stairs for some antacids). Woke up at 6:30 feeling bad - not like I was going to throw up again, but like I had a too empty stomach. I went down stairs and tried to eat ( I say tried because all I could manage was a popsicle and 1.5 crackers between 6:30 and 9:00), but mostly just slept on the couch.

So here I am sitting on the couch waiting for Scott to come back from the store with saltines and ginger ale, dreading the next 4-6 weeks.